Im dating a girl, but im still hung up on my ex boyfriend. They were perfect, but we were just too far away. We did nearly 5 years of long distance and spent 2 years planning on meeting, but they never seemed to really want to move to Canada in the end. I still cry about them at night, and it urks me when they mention girls they hang around because I know they are looking for a one night stand. I just want them back, the relationship we had was something I cant even describe. I dont even know if I like women, my friend jsut asked me out and this was 4 months after breaking up with my ex boyfriend. I cant stop thinking about them. Its unfair to my gf, but I cant tell her what's really going on, the real reason why I've been sick and depressed. I want them back...I want my jelly bean

i dated this guy over a year ago for 5 months. he cheated on me, flirted with other girls, wouldnt prioritize me, and manipulated me in our relationship. i loved him unconditionally and all i wanted back was to be loved. he moved on within 2 weeks. he has a gf now and seems to be treating her right. im still not over him and miss him everyday. idk what to do :(

Over a year ago now I met someone. They were the love of my life, we got along so well, and I loved them more than I’ve ever loved anyone before or since. I was there consoling them for the event they used to justify dating people who were taking advantage of them, who had flat-out impersonated them online for longer than we had even known each other, and they just forgave those people. I never told them, but right after that event happened, I was so proud of them for dealing with it the way they were. I ended up blocking them though, trying to put the stress I felt when it came to keeping them safe behind me; and while that stress is gone, I still miss them. I love you Lillian, hopefully we can meet again soon. Sincerely, your Dusk.

Continuation.. due to her past experiences of cheating she feels like I deserve it all. So I have to suffer all the consequences of what I've done. And now every move I do she have to know about it, All of my socmed account is now deleted or deactivated I don't do any of those now for 1 whole year now and I can't also do the things I want to do. She still doesn't know of what I did in the past and right now believe me I'm trying to make it up for her however it's draining me. And I'm hoping that one day it will be okay because right now my lingering feelings for my ex is almost fading however due to our situation I don't know if I will keep going or put an end to this and focus on my family and myself. I really think that everything that is happening is because of the sins I've made. And I'm thinking what if I didn't do that then I imagine me and my ex if we're still together being super happy. And I know it's wrong. The reason why I'm writing this is to say I'M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING