Published: 8 hours ago
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I think I’m dying. I can feel my health slowly deteriorating by the day, symptoms becoming worse and I’m slowly becoming completely bedridden again. My mom says it’s just my disease flaring up, that I’ll just need to readjust my medication dose and I should be fine. But it doesn’t feel like that I feel like all my energy has been ripped away, I’m having to take strong pain medication just to make it through the day without being left suffering in total agony, I’m sleeping practically 24/7, it feels hard to breathe sometimes, I’ve been unable to leave my bed for the past month Hell, I haven’t even managed to get to the hospital to get checked out. And the last time we called an ambulance I had a fucking panic attack. And honestly? Even if I am dying? I’m sorta okay with it, at least it means my illness will be gone. I’ll finally be able to feel free of pain for the first time in over two decades.
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